Truth or Dare

It’s right not to pass me & issue me a license.. I’m an impatient, reckless & careless "driver". God knows how many accidents I will cause if I’m driving…

I’m so angry with myself~ have to waste money to retake~ *sighs*

But heaven dotes on me by letting me saw this yandao kia… Just when I was walkin up to the office with the tester, this guy who was walkin down the stairs, "aye or wei" (can’t remember). I turned my head around, woo… yandao kia! But i duno him… *lolz* guess he recognised the wrong person.

ok very well, tmr is 30th Sept 2005. I can see the dark clouds above me… so far i dropped my hp (cover & batt all fell out) 3 TIMES for today!!! My experiment failed. *sighs sighs sighs*

Reached the lab early this morning to change the medium for my cells… damn. Who used up the 1X PBS!!! There isn’t a single bottle in the cold room. Thank God I learned smart over the past 2years with the lab. Always keep a spare for PRIVATE USE.

OBSESSION

1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.

- a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling; also : something that causes such preoccupation.

- an irrational motive for performing trivial or repetitive actions against your will.

- an unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone.

SHE is in a happy mood today cos DW’s paper got accepted by Ocogene.

I was browsing throught the jobs vacancy that Dr. Forday sent… Is it a time to change a job? *shrugs* SHE was telling me this morning that the project I’m doin that has a very high potential to get into a high impact paper (That’s how SHE craps & tries to motivate ppl in doing the experiment). Too bad, I’m not interested in the project at all. I just want to get over it (I have been diligently doing it).

SHE asked abt when AL is coming back… I said 10th Oct, SHE gave the puzzled look, "I thought next week? But he took 5 days off from me only." I can sense the distrust again~ SHE even doubt of AL… ? (Aren’t SHE tired of being so suspicious, paronoid?) who else can SHE trust? Please… not me.

Within a day, 3 person has already asked, "Do u intend to further studies?" I can’t see what lies in my future~ I’m in a dilemma. So i answered, "Maybe no~, earn money is what’s more important to me now."

MONEY ($) a VERY IMPORTANT FACTOR in life.

Monday Morning, feeling a bit lethargic. Can’t even remember how I managed to drag my feet to the bus stop. Brought a packet of DAISY milk to lab, trying to avoid drinking coffee…. Caffeine could be the culprit for my outbreaks recently. Tried several pimple cream but none of them worked… went to Guardian yesterday morning to check out for some other pimple cream. Remembered reading a review for the "T3" pimple gel. Bought the 10g tube .. hmmm.. seems to be good, or was it due to the Strawberry mask I used? Heck, I just want my face to look pretty (Getting more & more vain).

Just entered into L6 from lift lobby, I can hear HER heels "kok kok kok…" damn… it’s 8.34am & SHE is here already. I thought SHE has lesson on Mon morning? Shit… SHE must have squeezed classes all together.

AL & JW are not around, no potential targets for HER to shoot… SHE left at abt 11.30am to NUS. Wonder what SHE did to her hp, SHE said it’s not working… did SHE destroy it? or mayb Aston did.. hahaha…

Almost 12noon, I’m waiting for my Savior to come & save me from the hyena~

Monday 19th Sept 2005
I was suffering from Monday Blues until TK appeared in the lab saying, "Hi Mei Nu, long time no see!" That greeting put a smile on my face & I greeted back, "Hey, TK, good morning, nice to have u back~"
First day of work for Joel *sighs* wonder what the psycho will do in the lab.
TK has a crave for Roti Prata, so they went to the Indian shop opp. NCC for lunch (I joined them after finishing my expt). It’s a pity, they don’t have Prata so we either had Mee/Nasi Goreng. Order a COLD "teh cino" but they gave me a HOT one. How can I possibly drink it when the weather is so freaking warm? That fellow destroyed the 2 layers of my "teh cino" by adding ICE to it. *sighs*

Tuesday 20th Sept 2005
Lab Meeting… the drawing out of a duty roster topic was being raised again. I dun understand why she wants me to draw up a duty roster when eventually nobody will follow it. It’s not as if we have nv done that before. I couldn’t be bothered with her was kinda pissed off. Even had an argument with AL over it.
Dinner, I went Upper Thomson Road for Ma La Steamboat buffet with my colleagues. Didn’t want to join them cos I know I’ll be bored. But I went eventually,
Reason 1: It’s a lab gathering for TK
Reason 2: BS invited me to join them (we started talking to each other again since 2 wks ago) & I said ok already.
Just when we were having dessert, JB suggested going to KTV. I won’t go with him over my dead body.
Should have taken a cab home instead of taking a ride to MRT station in GP’s car. Anyway, XL & JM were with me, so it was kinda fine. Although it was a short distance, but it seemed to be taking a long time & I kept quiet throughout the journey.

Wednesday 21th Sept 2005
Thank God nobody had diarrhorea this time after eating the Steamboat.
The previous time when they went, heard that they had stomach upset. Perhaps this time it was bcos BS requested them to reduce the Spiciness (No wonder no kick for me - my threshold for spiciness has increased).
Lunch treat celebration & farewell for TK from boss. ~ 15 dishes for 3 males 3 females for my table. Oh gosh!!! I was bloated after the meal… i have not even finish digesting last night’s steamboat.
Dinner, they went for dinner & durians… D.U.R.I.A.N.S.!!!!! *drools*

Thursday 22th Sept 2005
Got a Sony Network Walkman 512MB (doesn’t seem to be enough). 
Rained heavily during lunch time….
LOST "translation" - What are you willing to give up for the one u love?

Friday 23th Sept 2005
We were worried that we’ll be shot for going a long lunch break. cos AK gave the whole lab (excluding students) a lunch treat at Dragon Gate Restaurant.
Luckily, SHE was not in the lab for the whole day.
Went to watch Initial D over at Padang (StarlightCinema). Wanted to watch with JY, but Jack took leave so I went with him instead.
Reached there before 7p.m. Movie started at 8.30p.m. Can sense that he wasn’t happy that I answered the call & received the sms. I asked "why" cos he kept REALLY quiet after that. He said nothing even thought there is something up in his mind. I know~ but since he didn’t want to mention, then I’ll just leave it.
May sound heartless, unconcern … but that’s me. Be honest & straightforward to me. PLEASE say something when there is something!!! I don’t want to encounter a sudden EXPLOSION!! I’m not an insensitive person, I nv mention doesn’t mean I can’t sense it. "Some things are best left to be unsaid."

Saturday 24th Sept 2005
"Can you forgive & forget?"
It’s kinda difficult isn’t it?

Sunday 25th Sept 2005
I’m getting uglier~

"INSANITY IS A TOOL, USE IT WELL."

- Robert Clarke

陈文雅

<<雨天>>

"你会在雨天想起谁?"

Actually, I’m not really a mooncake person…

I happened to see the flaky skin mooncake at Smith Street, so I bought a box to test it out… should have bought 1 and try first instead. But I’m too excited to see it! hahaha… tonight I’ll go back & eat!!! Yam paste!!! wonder why I took the one with egg yolk~ *ponders*

My mind was switched off whenever SHE started nagging, & on again when SHE stopped. Each day, I have to swtich it on & off several times that my mind has gone completely hay wired, ended up, some memories were lost. Before I forgot everything… I better record them.

1. I saw Nancy Sit & Ann Kok filming near Pearl Centre on my way for lunch.

2. Catch Surprise Movie at GV Plaza every alternate Tues @ $5 (started on 6th Sept 05).

3. Malaysia $1 coin will soon cannot be used~ So spend/change them.

I was so perturbed to read 6th Sept 05 TODAY newspaper article Pg14 "WHO NEEDS MARRIAGE?"

Some quotes from the article:

"woman should shoulder complete blame if her husband philanders"

"straying is in man’s very nature"

"Do not blame nature for acts that are simply irresponsibility and immaturity at work"

"The truth is that men gain a lot from marriage - a free cook, maid, child bearer, sex partner and, in many cases, extra cash as most women work nowadays. Why would a man walk away from all this?"

"Recently, I asked a male friend, a habitual womanizer: ‘Would you forgive and forget if your wife has a boyfriend?’ His immediate reaction was: ‘I see no reason why she’d do that … I am able to satisfy her needs in every way." "HE was visibly perturbed, hemming and hewing, red-faced … This reveals a few things. Firstly, he had never given that issue any thought before. Secondly, he was embarrassed by even he thought if it. And finally, it was clear he was not going to grant a ‘forgive-and-forget’ blank check!"

"LOYALTY IS NO LONGER THE KEY TO MARRIAGE"

"The same phrases - respecting sacred vows, making compromises, that it takes "two hands to clap", that marriage is a choice - cropped up in the many letters from readers who believed firmly in the old-fashioned ideals of marriage, and that a promise is forever."

Yesterday 7th Sept 05

She is such a B.I.T.C.H.!! Someone couldn’t find the protein extracted from P50 (2001). HE approached my help, I tried searching in the database, I couldn’t find. HE asked YP for help, couldn’t find. Then HE must have told HER ! That darn JB, every time not around when HE is suppose to be!!!! No JB, SHE came & pestered me. Then I told her it’s not stated in the patient’s database should be in -70oC, HE started to give alot of crops! Arg~ (Don’t want to do say don’t want to do lah!) Couldn’t find from the tissue database, SHE frowned & said, "That group of ppl ah! Call JY/LP!" Damn!!! She was trying to say they didn’t do their work?! Stupid shit! They have done an EXCELLENT job!! I was so pissed off, that I walked out of the lab~ Waited for the stupid bus that nv come when I was waiting, but came when I walked away, making my way to the MRT station. Think my anger was all bottomed up that my stomach was in pain the whole night.

Today 8th Sept 05

Got scald by Liquid Nitrogen again… 6 fingers (couldn’t open the cryobox, AL & I gave up on that sample in that box) Isn’t there a BCP exercise this evening? Still no call/sms… it’s almost 12 I’m going to bed… can’t be bothered.

我见到老先生了 =)